Always feeling the NEW in "New Mom"

I have realized how little I know when it comes to being a mom. You'd think after having one myself, growing up around tons of other moms and helping babysit my siblings, I would have some clue. A lot does come naturally, for sure - I remember being scared to death while I was pregnant, wondering how I will know when to feed my daughter, to let her cry, to soothe her, to change her diaper, to give her baths...it was a never ending list of questions. And the answer I always got from asking other moms for advicewas the same: "You'll figure it out" or "You'll just KNOW" (that drove me crazy!)...and there is a lot I just KNOW, thanks to God for the natural motherly instinct, but my questions are still never ending.

Right now I'm trying to focus on the present - I'm trying not to freak out about the fact that my daughter will be a teenager someday, I'll just love the fact that her little face lights up when I walk in the room :)

Right now, I'm struggling with the idea of her sleeping through the night...she's NOT doing it! Every mom I know says she should be doing it by now, but every two hours on the dot she wakes up and cries to fed or soothed. It breaks my heart to let her "cry it out" when my purpose as her mother is to take care of her - how do I escape the feeling that I'm just being selfish to want her to sleep through the night? Oh, I don't know. The first baby is just trial and error I guess, hah!

I've noticed a huge change in my view of things, with the help of watching a little too many documentaries and studying on my own. I'm shifting more towards eating organic, growing my own meat and veggies, making bread, baby food and whatever else I can at home and giving my family the best I can. Another thing is trying more homeopathic solutions to my daughter's growing aches and pains. When I thought she started teething I hated putting numbing medicine on her gums, and I could tell she hated it too...so a friend recommended getting an "amber teething necklace" - after googling and reading reviews I ordered her an amber bracelet (http://www.amberartisans.com/amtene.html).

Anything I can try to help her grow in the happiest way possible I will try.

Here's to doing the best I can and trying not to stress about it all - thats got to count for something right?